Wow, has it really been another week since my last post?
I hope some of you are still reading! I think I might be running out of blogging steam. Actually, I may be running out of steam in general!
Lilly started officially crawling a few weeks ago and hasn't slept through the night since. Not only is she not sleeping through the night, but she's also pulling up to stand, cruising, and successfully standing on her own for about 5 seconds before she falls on her bottom.
Needless to say, I can not leave the girl alone for a second.
And then there's my Abby. My sweet, little Abby who somehow morphed into a monster that is defiant and needy. There are moments that it takes all the strength I can muster to remain calm. Since I'm the only parent home most days, I fail at the whole 'remaining calm' thing more often then not.
Speaking of being the only parent home, this week my girls only saw Dan for about 10 minutes. THE WHOLE WEEK! I wait up for him and maybe see him for about an hour before we go to bed but we're so exhausted by that point that we speak in gibberish.
For the love of all things holy: CAN I PLEASE WIN THE LOTTERY?
All the silence on this here has got me thinking about where this blog is going. I read a lot about blogging and one of the tips that I always get stumped on is goals.
I don't really have any. I know I like to have readers (and commenters!) and I like to read other people's blogs. But it's hard to say what I really want from my teeny tiny piece of cyber space.
Monetizing would be nice but I don't want to bombard you with all sorts of ads. Writing sponsored posts would be nice but I can't really commit to anything. I can't even commit myself to my own schedule.
Right now, it seems like blogging is hit or miss but I've come to the conclusion that I'm ok with that. I'm not the best at commenting on other people's posts (I am reading though!). My posting schedule is nonexistent. My stats are laughable. Sometimes when I have time to post, I really have nothing worthwhile to write. And my site itself could use a little (ok, a tremendous amount of) TLC.
But, that's all ok. I never wanted blogging to be stressful. I am raising 2
My goal these days is to take a shower and eat something of sustenance (my body was fueled by caffeine and Combos yesterday).
So, this blog can go somewhere or nowhere. This is my outlet. My hobby. There are no expectations or goals.
I tend to over analyze every other aspect of my life. I put A LOT of unnecessary pressure on myself and I'm super critical of myself when I fall short of my own expectations. It feels refreshing that this blog, the one thing I do just for me, doesn't fall victim to my own high standards.
It is what it is... and I'm perfectly ok with that!